1.29.2010
Better Late Than Never...
Remembering Paw Paw...
Arguably, I should have seen it coming. When I saw Paw Paw at Christmas, he did not look well. He was slumped over in his favorite chair, and when we left, he felt strangely frail when I hugged him goodbye. In fact, I was so unnerved by that hug that I had a terrifying premonition that he might not be with us much longer. I was so upset by it that I had a silent cry in the backseat of the car, while my parents chatted in the front, unaware. I’ve never told anyone that.
A little over a week later, we got the call that he was being rushed to the hospital. Mom started frantically getting her things in order to leave and be with him, but before she could make it out the door we got another call. He was already gone.
The following week was a blur, marked by shock and overriding grief. What stands out to me was the disbelief in Grandma’s voice, as she told the story of his death over and over, to everyone who had not yet heard it, as if the act of repetition would somehow make it easier to wrap her head around the loss. It never got easier to hear.
Paw Paw was the first person I have lost in my life, with whom I was close. My uncle, Doug, passed away when I was very young, and did not understand the nature of death. My great-grandmother, Big Nana, and two of my great-uncles had passed away when I was in high school, but I did not feel their loss as acutely as I did with Paw Paw. My bond with him was much stronger.
What I remember most about Paw Paw, was how loved he made me feel. With so many other grandchildren, it would have been easy to get lost in the fray, but Paw Paw always made me feel special. Whether it was the little songs he would sing to me; the trips we would take to Dairy Queen, just the two of us; the little projects he would create for me out in his woodshop in the garage; or the way he would call me on my birthday and sing me “Happy Birthday,” and I would sing “Happy Half-Birthday” to him and vice-versa, he always made me feel like he was making a special effort, just for me. They were all simple things, but they were so important.
Maybe five years is not enough.
I know that much of my family is out there reading this, so now I’m turning things over to you. What is your favorite memory of Paw Paw?
My cousins Trista, Danielle, me, and Aimee with Paw Paw visiting New Salem.
1.28.2010
Too Far...
The Mayor's Office of Special Events claims that the new schedule will alleviate demands on the city's transportation and safety resources, by eliminating the stream of 1.2 million visitors into downtown for a single display. By hosting three events, one on the North Side at Montrose Harbor, one downtown at Navy Pier, and one on the South Side at the 63rd Street Beach, Daley claims that the fireworks will become more accessible to the citizenry by allowing them to stay closer to their own neighborhoods. The argument is that the only people to suffer in the new arrangement will be suburbanites who sought to have their cake and eat it too, by attending the Chicago fireworks on the 3rd and their own local shows on the 4th.
I disagree. Besides driving home the point that nothing is sacred in a down economy, the Mayor's Office is destroying one of the few events for which the people of Chicago come together. It is a good thing for people to leave their neighborhoods and come together. The mass solidarity at the 3rd of July fireworks display is a reminder of the diversity that defines our nation, and is all the more important to remember on the occasion of our national birthday. For a city as geographically divided by lines of class and race as Chicago, to tell the people that we are better off to stay in our own neighborhoods is a refutation of the ideals towards which we should be striving. To Mayor Daley and his staff, I say, "Poorly done." In these tough times we should be uniting, not rending asunder. Today, I am not proud to be a Chicagoan.
1.27.2010
Ennui...
I haven't prepared anything that was photogenic enough to share with you, but just yesterday I made my first attempt at homemade risotto. It wasn't as challenging as I thought it would be, although if I had it to do over, I might have followed a recipe instead of improvising my non-rice components to create a more harmonious flavor profile. Inspired by my visits to Natasha in the hospital, I also whipped up a batch of my favorite popsicles recently (it's one of the few desserts she can eat on her new restricted diet), using the last of the peaches I had frozen over the summer. Frozen desserts might not be the first thing to come to mind in January, but for whatever reason, they really hit the spot. I've got a few more kitchen projects to get to before the end of the month, but overall, I'm content to close out the month on a quiet note, even if it doesn't provide many opportunities for compelling journalism...
1.20.2010
A Single Man...
1.18.2010
To Market, To Market...
My final purchase at the French Market came from Fumare Meats, which, as far as I can tell, does not have another location in the Chicago metropolitan area, but I could be mistaken. They featured an impressive selection of cured meats, including roughly ten different varieties of slab bacon, sliced to order. I made a mental note of the impressive-looking andouille sausage for a planned attempt to make red beans and rice in the future, but since I was not looking to prepare any meat dishes this week, I resisted most of their tempting offerings and instead chose a sampler package of sausage products. I appreciated that they offered that option, as I find it difficult to commit to new things if there is a chance I'll be wasting my money on something I won't care for. Thankfully, my packet of sausage bites from Fumare was tasty enough that I will definitely be returning for my future charcuterie needs.
My only problem with the French Market was the somewhat depressing ambiance. Despite the name, the facility was wholly lacking in European ambiance. The ceiling boasted a labyrinth of electrical, HVAC and plumbing pipes and conduits, harsh fluorescent lighting cast a supermarket-like pall over the interior, and the linoleum floor, while undoubtedly practical, was doing nothing to contribute an upscale sensibility to the space. The French Market provided an interesting brief diversion, one which I would be willing to revisit, but it could most definitely benefit from some cosmetic changes to turn it into a charming, European-style destination where I would want to spend an afternoon lingering.
1.15.2010
Perks...
Like many women, I am a sucker for weddings (although I don't actually like attending them very much, which probably has something to do with the forced public dancing), but I do love to watch television shows about them, i.e. A Wedding Story when I was growing up, or Say Yes To The Dress nowadays, and whenever one of my Facebook friends goes to a wedding and gets tagged in a photo, I always eagerly check out the other pictures of the gown and the decor, even if I don't know the couple in question. I think they appeal to my party-planning ways. Any exhibit that fuses my wedding voyeurism with my appreciation for vintage fashion is a winner in my book.
Given the pieces on Flickr, and the preview I acquired throughout the past week, I definitely have high hopes for the "I Do" exhibit, and I'm sure this is not the last you'll be hearing from me on the topic...
1.13.2010
Let's Go Out To The Movies...
Hopefully, if everything goes to plan, you should be reading several more film reviews in the weeks to come: January and February are usually when I make a consolidated effort to see as many of the Academy Award-nominated films as possible (the ones that picque my interest anyway.) For those of you who were bored by my cookie-mania in December, perhaps the cinema will be more to your liking...
1.07.2010
Simple Gifts...
When I was in elementary school, we learned the song "Simple Gifts" in music class under the tutelage of Mrs. Schnell, not only to perform vocally, but also on the recorders we were taught to play. I hadn't thought about that memory for quite some time, but it came to me today as I was contemplating some rather disconcerting news that I received from my friend Natasha.
On the phone, while she was delivering her news, I was struck by how calm she was. After all, Natasha is used to being sick. She underwent chemo for her lupus when she was 17, has suffered multiple heart attacks due to the disease, and has even had a stem cell transplant that she credits with saving her life, all before the age of 30. So for Natasha to go to the hospital to begin chemotherapy, it is not as terrifying to her as it would be for say, somebody like me. If I were in her situation, I would be coming apart at the seams.
I would like to ask that any of you reading this keep Natasha in your thoughts, or, if you are so inclined, say a prayer for her. At the very least, take a moment to reflect upon the gift of good health that some of us are fortunate enough to enjoy. Being healthy gives us simple lives, in which we don't have to ponder outcomes like chemotherapy. We have the freedom to live without worrying about "flares" or recurrences of chronic illness. There are many people out there who aren't as fortunate. Nobody should have to get used to being sick. Hospitalizations shouldn't be routine for anyone. Those of us who are so lucky should be thankful for the gift of good health, and remember to be supportive to those who have not been blessed in the same way.
1.06.2010
Bring In The New...
Despite being a dedicated Mac enthusiast, I had resisted the iPhone for quite some time. For one thing, I was concerned that I would get one just in time for Apple to release a new version, which was what happened when I became an early adopter of the iPod. I had the second generation iPod, only to have the click-wheel generation be released a month or so later. Mostly, however, I was resistant to the additional $30 charge on my monthly AT&T bill for the iPhone data plan.With my salary, it was not an expense I could easily justify, especially considering the paltry volume of email I receive. I'm just not somebody who needs to be constantly in touch.
Still, the iPhone was undoubtedly appealing. It would be a godsend to have internet access on the go, and be able to stand at the bus stop and check the CTA's Bus Tracker system to find out how much longer I would have to wait. It would also be great to be able to check a map when I have a moment of panic en route to somewhere I've never been before (I have a huge irrational fear of getting lost). Plus, I would be able to consolidate my iPod and my phone, and carry just one device, which would help lighten the burden that I carry around on my shoulder all day. There would definitely be perks to having an iPhone.
So, after hemming and hawing for the past three years (I also pondered getting one when they first became available), and with my cellular plan up for renewal, my parents decided to intercede and give me an iPhone for Christmas, along with a one-time lump-sum payment to cover the additional expense of the data plan. Well, that is to say that they told me that they would go with me to the store and buy me one (they didn't actually go out and buy it, wrap it, and give it to me as a gift, since they didn't know which one I wanted.)
Since I was home over the weekend, we headed to Best Buy to seal the deal. I ended up with a swank 16GB iPhone 3GS (I couldn't foresee myself needing the 32GB version, considering the minute fraction of my iPod's storage capacity I actually utilize.) I came home, fitted it with an Invisible Shield screen protector (which was much more difficult to install than I had originally anticipated, but at least I managed to get it on without any air bubbles) and an Incase rubber skin, and was good to go.
I must say, the smartphone experience is pretty addicting. Having Bus Tracker at my fingertips is pretty much the best thing that has ever happened to my daily commute, short of getting rides to and from the office from family and friends. I downloaded a couple of fun games -- DoodleJump and Tetris, which have quickened the pace of the solitary lunches I have been eating this week while my friend Natasha is out sick. I'm sure that I'll find more apps to download when the need arises, but for now, I'm pretty pleased with my new device. Thanks Mom and Dad!
1.02.2010
Avatar...
I wish I could say that I was pleasantly surprised, but I was not. Yes, the movie was visually stunning. The special effects are revolutionary. But if the entire appeal of the film is visual, I could have stood to be visually absorbed in the world of Pandora for about an hour less. If the plot, the characters, and the dialogue had been stronger, I might have better withstood the nearly three hour run time, but I found myself distracted by their ridiculousness instead, and was checking my watch after about the first hour.
Other than the technology used to create the film, Avatar offers nothing new. At no point, was I in doubt over what was going to happen next. It felt like somewhat of a pastiche of earlier films. For example, the helicopters raining down destruction from the sky on less technologically advanced natives felt very much like a Vietnam-era film to me, a perception that was heightened by the film's principle villain, who could have been the twin of Apocalypse Now's Lt. Col. Kilgore. I was almost waiting for him to make an utterance somewhere along the line of Kilgore's famous quote, "I love the smell of napalm in the morning... it smells like victory." Plus, Avatar's villain seemed almost entirely lacking in clearly-articulated motivation. Why was he so intent on slaughtering the Na'vi? Why the wholesale rejection of diplomacy? Just because he's a career military man? That seems a little too obvious. Clearly, that $500 million investment did not include decent scriptwriting. The controversial "shock-and-awe" campaign included in the film could very well be a metaphor for Avatar itself: the movie seeks to awe you and overload your senses with special effects so that you remain blind to the predictability and generic quality of the plot.
Furthermore, I found the movie entirely too preachy. If I wanted to spend three hours being beat over the head with a environmentalist, anti-capitalist, anti-corporate, anti-imperialist message, I would rather go see a Michael Moore documentary. At least he's unapologetic about his beliefs. It's somewhat difficult to buy the same message coming from Avatar, a major studio picture with a litany of corporate investors brought in to defray the film's massive production costs.
As we were leaving the theater, I couldn't help but draw a comparison between seeing Avatar for the first time, and re-watching Titanic (Cameron's last blockbuster) last year. When I first saw Titanic in middle school, my tastes were less sophisticated than they are now. I was taken with the glamor of the world that Cameron recreated in the film, and impressed with the special effects used to recreate the sinking of the ship. As an adult, I found myself laughing at the stilted dialogue and resultant poor acting, especially now that the technology that created Titanic's special effects is over a decade out of date. I hypothesize that if I had seen Avatar at an earlier time in my life, I might have enjoyed it more.
Such is my problem with movies that depend on computer-generated special effects -- they do not age well. Look at the "classic" films that have stood the test of time, like Casablanca or even The Godfather. Those films have very little in the way of special effects, but their engaging stories and superb acting are timeless. Will people reflect on Avatar in quite the same way 30, or 70 years from now? I think not.